NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT

Long time no talk. Summer vacation is my only excuse, but there have been many changes in my life. Oh don't worry I want list them all but I will tell you that I just celebrated my 34th birthday on the 12th of August. YEA ME!!! So on my birthday I took a moment to reflect and I learned some things about myself and it was some things I loved and it was some things I didn't like so much but hey that's life, right . Any way I took a moment and thought about the people that have shape my life and there has been a lot of them. From my mom who gave birth to me to my mom who gave me the values of life (may she rest in peace), to my dad who supplied the fertilizer that met the egg that made me, to all of my brothers and my sisters, to all those who love me and special thanks to all of you that hate me. Because I realize, had it not been for all of you I wouldn't be where I am today. Today I am a confirmed believer that I am skillfully and wonderfully made and that God made me for a purpose. So when I look back on the comments and the actions of the people in my life all I can say is thank you. Thank the lovers for loving and the haters for hating, 'cause 'am still standing and by the grace of God 'am stronger, wiser and my heart is fuller than it has ever been. You see I can look back over my life and see where God has been an ever presence force that held me, comforted me, and loved me when I felt no one else did. You see I now know without a doubt that he is the center and the source and without him there is no me.

So my question is have you had that moment yet when you just know you are loved by the almighty God. Because I know it and because I know it I can truly agree with Marvin Sapp. That's my question, I need an answer.

Later 'E'

JOJO-N-BOW WOW

I just love the words of this song. The music will make you bounce and the words will make you think.



No question just enjoy.

Later 'E'

People Pleaser or Just An Option

Have you ever had a moment in your life where you just stopped and looked at yourself and ask yourself why? Why am I so tired? Why do I run myself in the ground for others? Why do I put myself out there? Why can't I say no? Why do I make it so easy for other to take advantage of me? Why want people ever just take me as I am? Why am I always worried about the opinion of others? Why can't he love me? Why can't I find happiness? Why is joy playing hide-n-seek with me? Why? Why? Why? It is these very questions and many like it that send people into depression, into suicide, into mental breakdown. These are the very questions you never find the answer to. So I had to ask myself, Why do you want the answer to these questions, to make myself better, and then I asked but what is wrong with the you now. Well, here is my conclusion, and I do me MY CONCLUSION, PEOPLE PLEASING. OK let's back up just a bit, have you ever got that text message that says, "Never make someone a priority when you are only an option." Well think about who sent you that text are you the option in their lives. Now that's something to think about. Not just the courtship relationships but the friend relationship. You know that friend you hang around that doesn't notice you until you not there, or better yet you stand right there and because it is you they carry on fifty different conversations and just ignore you and think nothing of it because you are suppose to understand. Oh you are the person they can call for anything but the one day you have something else to do for yourself they get angry because your not there. How about that moment you get fed up and you feel the need to express yourself and at the end of the conversation you are trying to figure out how did this become your fault and of course your feelings are hurt, and you think well damn how did I get here. There are two answers to the question (a) People pleasing or (b) you are just an option. You know there is nothing wrong with options, or even people pleasing, so I guess my thing is know your place and save yourself the heart ache because believe it or not no matter what you do you will always be an option to some people and you can't please everybody.
There are a lot of whys and why nots in life and I guess you just have to pick the ones you really want to know the answer to.So the question today is, What is the why in your life and is it worth answering. That's the question I need an answer.

Later 'E'

Make Me Better

[ CHORUS ] i`ma movement by myself but i`ma force when we're together mami im Good all by myself but baby you, you make me better. you make me better you make me better
[ VERSE 1 (loso) ] You plus me, it equals better math your boy a good look but she my better half i`m already bossing, already flossing but why have the cake if it ain`t got the sweet frosting? (ya ya ya ya) keeping me on my A-game (wha wha wha wha) without having the same names (they they they they they)they may flame -- (buh buh buh buh)but shorty we burn it up the sag in my swag. pep in my step daddy do the gucci mami intercepts guess its a "G" thinq.. whenever we swing, ima need lorretta scott if im gunna be king.
** CHORUS ** i`ma movement by myself but i`ma force when we're together mami im good all by myself
> but baby you, you make me better. you make me better you make me better
[ VERSE 2 (ne-yo) ] First things first i does what i do but everything i am, shes my improved im already boss, im already fly but if i am a star, she is the sky (ah ah ah)and when i feel like im on top (she she she)she give me reason to not stop (eh eh eh eh) and though im hot, (to to to) together we burn it up
[ Verse 3 (loso) ] the caked up cut the cleaned up ice when shorty come around, i clean up nice dynamic duo, batman & robin. whoever don't like it, its that mans problems (eh eh eh) and when i feel like im tired, (ma ma ma) mami be taken me higher (uh uh uh uh uh) im on fire, (buh buh buh) but shorty we burn it up.
** CHORUS ** i`ma movement by myself but i`ma force when we're together mami im good all by myself but baby you, you make me better. you make me better you make me better
[ ne-yo ] beside every great man, you can find a women like a soldier, holding him down
[ Verse 4 (loso) ] she treats me like a don, watchs for the hit she checks where i go, even watchs who im wit the right when im wrong, so i never slip show me how to move, thats why i never trip and babygirl you so major, they should front page ya god bless the parents who made ya middle finger anybody who hate the WAY WE BURN IT UP!
** CHORUS ** i`ma movement by myself but i`ma force when we're together mami im good all by myself but baby you, you make me better. you make me better you make me better





Need I say anything, the message is clear, crystal actually. I have listen to this song for a while now and every time, I have had the same thought. When you are a part of some one's life they should feel this way about you and vice verse you should feel this way about that person. Now here's the question are you that person and/or is that the person in your life and if not why are you there and why are they? I need an answer.

Later 'E'

A Thought

I just had a great thought. It came and --------------------------- it went. When it returns I'll share it with you.
The questions is does this ever happen to you. You know you have this brilliant moment and two seconds later you are suffering from acute memory loss. Here's you moment express yourself.


Later 'E'

I Just Love My Sista

There are few people in this world who have the boldness to say what's on their minds and I am here to tell my sister is one of them. You see my sister is not like any other person in the world, that chick has an uncanny ability to put you just where you need to be without even knowing where you are. So am sitting here in class minding my own business and my phone rings and it’s my sister. Well first of all let me back up a bit while sitting in my class I am about bored out of my mind because my students are field testing so you can just about imagine my mind set at this point. But any way bored and I kind of needed a lift. Well any who my sister calls and calls me a dumb *** right out the blue and all I could do was laugh because I know that chick got issues but am now sitting in class with a grin on my face because my nut of a sister calls me a dumb ***. Now I bet you are wondering which one us is really crazy. Just to keep you from wondering we both are but what is life without a little craziness and a lot of laughter?

Later 'E'

An Ugly Splatter

Hi people,
I had a profound moment today and I thought I would share. Now let me paint a picture for you. I drive a 2000 Mazda Protege' which has been wrecked twice and would you believe I was not driving once which suck because I had to fix the damages. By the way I had no insurance, so I had to pay out of pocket and if you know me you already know my pockets ain't that deep. Any way my brother help repair my car with the money I had and the shade tree mechanic experience he had, he did an awesome job by the way. The paint job is a bit dull now and its time for me to get a new one all together. But here's the thing a couple of weeks ago my son sprayed something in my front windshield, don't know what it was but it left this ugly splatter in my window. Now remember I said a couple of weeks ago which by real time maybe about a month ago. Any who, I kept saying I have to clean that window, in the mean time pollen happened and you all know how pollen loves to hang on to a car. Well couple with pollen on the outside and that ugly splatter on the inside my car look pretty bad but I was moving so much I just didn't have time to correct the problem. So about a week ago I just got tired of the splatter and I took a wipe and attempted to clean the my windshield only to make things worse which frustrated me all the more. But do I stop to clean it, no I drive around a whole week before I just couldn't stand myself. So today I was laying on a sofa, that feels like a cloud from heaven, enjoying a nap that I can't even experience on my own sofa and what should cross my mind, yeah you guessed that damn windshield so I get up from the nap of all naps, if you had not guessed by know I was really enjoying my nap. Alright am up and am out and I went straight to the car wash and I washed my car and I spent a little extra and I clean my windshield until it shined like new money. I jumped back in my car and I drove home, and for the first time in weeks I enjoyed the ride home and if gas wasn't so high I might have take a drive, but the scenery looked different, as a matter of fact, for the first time I didn't see the pollen and saw the birth of new flowers and re-blossoming of the trees. You see this is what I am getting at and here come the question, for weeks I drove around with ugly spot blocking my vision and I really couldn't see the world around me and then I realized (this was my wow moment) how often we drive through life with a dirty windshield that blocks our vision and we miss out on the beauty around us and so often we try to swipe at it making things worse instead of taking the time to clean it. So the question is what's blocking your vision and have you gotten tired of it yet and if so when do you planning on cleaning it.
There's the question I need an answer.
Later 'E'.

Apologize

When is it to late to say I am sorry? When does it become to much? When does it get to a point where your heart can't take any more of the lying, the false promises, and the neglect. Why do we take so much before we wise up and walk away.

There's the question I need an answer.
Later 'E'

Family

It just occurred to me that family is a strange word. You see we call people family who treat and love us differently then other people. Which is really cool since many of us have an inconclusive definition of what love really is, you see the thing is I have found in life that family can be a bit difficult (to put it mildly). So my question of the day is, if family are the ones to love you and protect you, why are they the very ones that sometimes hurt you.

There the question I need an answer!
Later 'E'

Real Love

What is real love and how do you know that it's real?
There's the question I need an answer.

Later 'E'.